Jason's Bday at Italiannis

Who would ever forget the event that happened last friday night? Not only its the special day of Jason but also the night that I experienced an embarassing "wardrobe malfunction". I terribly regretted of not pushing through my plans of slimming down weeks before my love's birthday. Sigh....Anyway, regardless of the blunder that had just occured, we still effortlessly managed to celebrate his birthday pleasantly. I was really happy that night coz we're still together on his big day after all the brouhaha we made over the past several months. The "no more drama"scenario that I am handling delicately these days is really an understatement for both of us. Thank God, Jason finally made an effort to change his ways for the better. He's really not that "pasaway" anymore. Remember during the early part of the year that I thought I really created a monster? Honestly, I was really expecting for the worst to come. But a sudden miracle happened in which things are turned over. Now, I really hope he continue this improvement for the sake of our almost fragile relationship. Realizing that he is not getting younger anymore he sacrificed his old ways and act now as a responsible adult. In welcoming his new phase in life we decided to celebrate it together simple and intimate. Through the years I always make it a point of lavishly treating Jason on his birthday despite of all kinds of situations we are in. I really do think that this dinner at Italiannis, The Fort would be forever etched in our memories as one of the best, lovely and coolest dinner we ever had. Happy birthday again my love!

We ordered baked ziti and chicken barbecue pizza. Delicioso! Most especially the oozing creamy beef and mozzarella cheese of the ziti! Yum!

bday gift 4 Jason

I surprised Jason by giving him

a brand new Nokia 5130 xpress music celphone

as a present for his upcoming birthday this friday.

I know deep in my heart that he greatly appreciates

this simple gift of mine.

Harry Potter opening day!

The most awaited day of the year has finally arrived. The day the magic of the new Harry Potter installment is unleashed. Braving the storm with heavy rains, me and Jason troop to MOA in the early dark and cold morning to see Harry Potter and the half blood prince. We really had such a good time when we go on dates like this. There were absolutely no dull moments whenever we are out together since day one. Awww so sweet..... Anyway, Im glad he absolutely enjoyed the movie eventhough he havent read any of the books for that matter. Whats funny is that he kept pestering me about the real deal with Snape and Dumbledore's twists in the story. Well, which I proudly havent divulge yet cause I really want him to be still intrigue and be surprise with the next movie "The Deathly Hallows". But that is a long wait if I may add.... he he he... we definitely love this movie. The best of the series! Gonna watch this again anytime soon.

Revenge of the Couple

after the controversial split up under the watchful eye of the public last week, Jason and I made a low profile appearance during the 2nd day showing of Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen. Amidst the aftermath of the storm Feria (and my relationship), we bravely got to a theater to watch another blockbuster movie and in a way to celebrate our 6 years and 6 month anniversary. We were supposedly gonna go out on a date this comin Sunday but since its rainy and dark outside I asked him if he wanted to go out... he immediately said yes.. its just like a spur of the moment decision for the two of us. Believe me I am much more so energized and hyper to go out during the rainy and cold seasons... Anyway we tried to rekindle for the nth time our long lost romantic relationship. We're happy again... Il just cross my fingers guys! Wish me luck!

Jason's Great Escape

Another twist in the long running saga of my love affair just happened yesterday at around 12 noon. My friend informed me thru a text message that Jason packed up his things and left his pad without tellin anybody where he would be goin. He just said to my friend "Di na kami magkakaayos... babalik na lang ako pag tumino na ako." I thought we're ok already.... one week ago we were super happy...now we are separated for the first time. Oh my.. my love life is like a big roller coaster ride...

"im alright.. dont be sorry but its true... wen Im gone ul realize dat im d best thing dat happened 2 u"

Kenny Rogers dinner

After weeks of speculations of a breakup coupled with ala cold war relationship w/ Jason, I finally decided to go out with him and had some unplanned dinner at Kenny Rogers. The truth is we're a lil bit ok now... somewhat rekindling our lost romance and trying hard to patch things up.








Anyway...

Me? I just had some low calorie meal: grilled fish w/ steamed veggies as side dish... yum!

here we go again...

I really dont know what to do with Jason anymore. Yes we had another fight yesterday. He's an all time "pasaway" ever. It's like Ihave a 13 year old lover... As in! I really want to break up with him but deep in my heart I still very much in love. I feel that I really can't live without him. We've been together for almost six years. Honestly,im just thinking of the "cool off" option only rather than breakin up forever. I just want to teach him a lesson in regards with life and relationship. Im still hoping that he will grow up as a mature person. He's a nice person in fairness. I admit I am
have to accept for what he is. But I really cant take his sometimes unexplainable behavior. Im also not a perfect person. So what am goin to do? Isnt it ironic that Im startin to be a good lover and igniting again the fire in our relationship these past few weeks then he did something bad again? Anyway my blood is super boiling everytime his "barkadas" crosses my mind.

Exclusive: the "other" revealed!

Jesus the guy who recently broke my heart.... after five months of a whirlwind romance with him and being unfaithful to my original love of my life, I finally decided to call it quits. He was the one who inspired me to write poems for the past few months. The guy who treid to re-energized my slumbering heart. I admit I fell in love with him. Never felt this kind of thing in a long while. Junior knows the strategy how to make me fall in love. He was very consistent in everything for being romantic. He brought me to a new heights that Ive never been. He was the sweetest guy i've ever met... I thought he was the "too good to be true" guy. I thought he's the next best thing.... But I am so wrong... It was just all for the show. A great actor indeed! He's a filthy liar ever to be born alive on earth! The painful experience with Junior made me a cynical person. In the past, I was forever the hopeful person in terms of love. For the first time in my entire life, as stupid or as cliche as it may sound, I started to believe from now on that no straight guy will ever love a gay person. For all the queers out there, forgive me if my thinking is so backward or so light years away from you guys....I must admit I really enjoy being with him even its painful. But thats enough... At least I have the good memories that Im goin to keep for the rest of life. Well, regarding with my straight lover Jason its another story.... Im sorry love. I promise this is the end.

Together Again?!

Yes its true... Jason and I are back in each others arms again. Last night, he mightily tried again to win back my woeful heart. Im hoping for the nth time that he would be able to fulfill the litany of promises he had just made. But during the four days we were both separated I experienced something refreshing that I havent felt in years. I must admit in a way that I enjoyed being single for that very short span of time. Yet at the same time I also felt an integral part of my life that is sorely missing. Do I still love him?

Splits, Fits and Quits!

After a tumultuous week surrounding my relationship with Jason, I finally made a decision to breakup with him at this very moment. I admit things were not good these past few days between the two of us. To make matters worse, he did something unacceptable again to me a while ago in which I will not divulge yet here. I know that I always declare this split thingy everytime we had a fight. But I hope Ill be firm in my decision this time around. I had enough... I hope Its the end.

Jason's Party Nightmare

My lover Jason was brought to the emergency room on the wee hours of the morning after suffering a bloody mouth concussion that he got from a brawl on a party he attended.


You know what? I received the most shocking fone call of my life ever!!! Jason called me up after midnight literally crying for help. The first time I heard him so terrified. I thought its the end of the world when I heard his shouts. I completely panicked and cried
cause I imagined so many things in a millisecond. I thought he got a major motorcycle accident and he's bloodied body lying down on the street. He sounds so helpless during that frantic call. When I learned he was caught in a rumble I felt my heart totally sank and my whole body went numb from the news. I really thought he's dying already. Thank god he just received a minor blow from the incident. This event marked a unique seal on my heart and made me love him more everytime I remember his voice from that desperate call.
I wonder why my lover always caught on controversies? Hmmm...

Big Mistake???

"Dont waste time feeling hurt"

I don't know if Im stupid or what?!

I texted him and now we're back in each others arms..

sorry my friends!

(im not referring to Jason)

Breakfast with love

I woke up at around 3am.. I felt a sudden a pang of hunger. Can't sleep anymore... Then so many things entered on my mind. Im starting to feel depressed again... I was having also an attack of boredom.

I suddenly miss my love one, Jason. Since I was craving for the past few weeks of sausage mcmuffin, I decided to call and wake him up.

I asked him if he want to have some super early breakfast at Mcdonalds. After the rollercoaster ride of my emotions and troubled love life these past few weeks, we were happily together again and drove sweetly at Macapagal branch. A nice good ol tripping for bored people like me. I really just want to break the monotomy of my life at present.

I just realize....

I LOVE YOU!!!

JASON FOREVER!!!!

Happiness is not for me...

Ruffa, Shawie and I met Madam last night at Dencios, Jupiter to have some stress reducing girl talk. Fresh from her trip to Singapore, Madam gave us some little souvenirs. As usual we had some great updates on the recent happenings of our COLORful fab lives. The biggest shock of the evening was the obvious 360 degrees turn of a very optimistic Shawie back to her alter ego cynical Miranda mode(sex and the city) in terms of love. Unusual for the girl that sometime last year, she was one of my hopeful and yearning for love girl friend. But then I already observed her change of face for the past few weeks that we two bonded together. My suspicion proved to be true because last night, she revealed that her love of life Mr. A, recently tied a knot with his longtime girlfriend. So I greatly understand what Shawie is really having right now.

Anyway, I also shared to them my recent dilemma in regards to my recent love life. Dont get me wrong I really love to hear their frank, objective, balance opinions to keep me grounded. Sometimes what they say are very hurtful but I always know that the truth is always painful. But I still listened to them with my open hearts forever. Yet, still Im the captain of my own ship. So anything they say sometimes doesnt matter when I started to fall in love. As a matter of fact Im a hard headed and super very weak person in this area of life. You know sometimes I just want to keep to myself the joy of being in love. I sometimes feel the urge not to share my feelings anymore to my friends. It sometimes enters my mind that I dont know if they really understand anymore what I feel. Because most of them really fall out of love already and they are all cynical persons now. Honestly, Im the one who always tried to link them to some guys in the past, because Im very hopeful that the time will come they would find their true match and to see all of us with our special someone. I really treasure them as my friends, no doubt about it. They are the ones who's always there during my depression and joyful eras. But sometimes I still wonder or I seem to think that when it comes to my wonderful relationships they are not that appreaciative even though I know deep in my heart that those affairs are successful. Forgive me readers if im not makin sense anymore. My state of mind right now is confused and blurred by recent turn of events these past few weeks. I just want to get this thing off of my chest.

One thing I can proudly say today that somehow Im very glad that in my life I tried to give relationships with men a try. The simple fact of experiencing what it feels to like or to be with a guy is a great joy enough. What more is that Im really blessed with the experience of having fantastic relationships with genuinely nice but not so perfect ideal guys in my lifetime. The experience of somebody really appreciating me (minus the material things) with all their mighty good intent efforts are just a special bonus and great enough to live comfortably happy for the rest of my life and see the world in a different positive perspetive.

me, love & the movies

a trip down to memory lane of my wonderful movie dates with Jason!



2003:

SCARY MOVIE 3 (october)
KIll BILL (nov)
CRYING LADIES (dec)
LORD OF THE RINGS: THE FELLOWSHIP OF THE RING (dec)
MANO PO 2 (dec)


2004:
BRIDAL SHOWER (january)
RETURN OF THE KING (january)
THE PASSION OF CHRIST (february)
TROY (may)
SPIDERMAN 2 (july)
THE BOURNE SUPREMACY (aug)
CATWOMAN (aug)
SKY CAPTAIN & THE WORLD OF TOMORROW (sept)
ALEXANDER (oct)
SANTA SANTITA (nov)
HAPPY TOGETHER (dec)


2005
STAR WARS: REVENGE OF THE SITH (may)
BATMAN BEGINS (july)
FENG SHUI (aug)
THE CONSTANT GARDENER (sept)
GOBLET OF FIRE (nov)
ANG PAGDADALAGA NI MAXIMO OLIVEROS (dec)


2006
KINGKONG (jan)
V FOR VENDETTA (march)
SUPERMAN RETURNS (may)
XMEN3 (june)
THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA (aug)
SUKOB (aug)
THE DEPARTED (oct)
THE GRUDGE 2 (nov)

2007
300 (mar)
SPIDERMAN 3 (may)
TRANSFORMERS (june)
HARRY POTTER AND THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX (july)
THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM (aug)
BEOWULF (nov)

2008
SWEENY TODD (jan)
10,000 BC (mar)
THE DARK KNIGHT (july)
ANG TANGING INA NIYONG LAHAT (dec)

2009
UNDERWORLD: THE RISE OF THE LYCANS (jan)
STARTREK (may)
TRANSFORMERS (jun)
HALFBLOOD PRINCE (july)
G.I. JOE (aug)